I’d like to feel it again
Anything
Love pity beauty shame
Roll off my back
Like the cold sweat of this self loathing
Numb to the world and fixated inward
Self talk about as sharp as a knife
Break out
Break free
Break down
Broken
Author Archives: Lotus Leo
Jump
If your hat was never in the ring
Can you lose?
If your cards were never on the table
Your desires went unaired
What right do you have to feel
Dejected
Rejected
Left out
I’d have liked a shot
To make it or break it
To even go down in flames
Is it too late?
When you have the chance;
Jump
A heart laid bare
I’m yours
For the taking
The dismantling
To have and to hold
In pieces I offer you my everything
An embrace when you need it
A heart heavy with your loss
A mind keen on your best interest
A set of legs for your amusement
A mouth singing your song
A watchful eye–or two
I am the sum of my parts
I am yours
For the taking
Bitter Medicine
Alight, I burn
Bright and fast
I writhe I melt
In paralyzing stillness
Restless with fever and wanting
A chill so deep
Eating me alive
It twists and turns
And breathes and cries
Threatening to burst at the seams
The bitter pill
If only as the sun sets
Ushers in the darkness
A twisting of the senses
To fix it break it solve it stop it
Alive in my stupor
Watching the sting
My soul numb
Limbs weak
Thoughts racing through my mind
No clear winner
For now
As alight, I burn
Human
A human
A heart of fool’s gold
I open in earnest, I express, and I trust
An unearned guilty conscience
Suspicious of my own reflection
A body of contradiction
There’s nothing left to know
But you don’t understand
Nothing left to show
And you still can’t see me
Blue in the face for nothing
Yet you define me
Trapped in the details
Endless words left hanging
Thickening the air
It’s impossible to breathe in here
I care more than you’ll ever know
Though I am more than what I seem
I always seem to be what you say
Sing, Little Bird 